Time to head home
Side note: I do have some blog posts I haven’t posted.. will post later and back date.
A little over a 14 months ago I decided to quit my job and go traveling. The plan back then was to do a cross country road trip from the east coast to the west, up to Alaska and back.. followed up by a full year of around the world travel. Like all plans.. the plan changed.. and changed.. and changed again. Life happened…again.. like it always does. I ended up spending 3 months doing the cross country thing and I had an amazing journey doing it. I saw some pretty amazing things, met lots of new people, experienced burningman, the thrill of catching a wild salmon in Alaska, sleeping in a tent in the desert, sleeping on a lawn chair on the deck of a ferry, and saw lots of old friends along the way. It was a wonderful journey.
Then after life happened… I found myself staying with my sister.. in middle georgia, a place I swore I would never go back to for any length of time.. i.e. a couple of days here and there.. just to visit and get the hell back out
BUT.. I ended up staying. To my surprise I actually enjoyed being there.. my parents drive me insane but it was nice to be able to have dinner with them on a fairly regular basis. Also I developed a bond with my nephew that I can’t really describe. I loved him before.. no doubt.. but in those 4 months that I spent there with him I grew to love him even more.. I didn’t know that was possible but I did. I even considered bringing him along on this trip with me but due to uncertainty on my part I decided it was best just to plan something with him over the summer. I want him to travel and experience the world. I want to give that to him but I also want to do that responsibly. He and I discussed it and we decided that rather than me traveling for a full year.. I would travel for 5 months.. return .. pick him up.. and go traveling again for another month with him.. over the summer. We decided we want to go to Italy.
So I booked my flights for my trip abroad.. Feb 8th to July 4th. 147 days or approximately 5 months. The plan had changed significantly. My idea that I could just find a place I liked and stay vanished. I HAVE to go back to the states.. that sounds like I am disappointed.. but I am not…it was my decision.. and every time I think about taking the little guy abroad.. I get a fuzzy, happy feeling in my stomach and a big smile on my face. I imagine us climbing to the top of the Leaning Tower of Pisa.. or riding a Gondola in Venice.. or blindfolding him to take him to Trevi Fountain in Rome… all these wonderful experiences he and I are going to get to have together just makes my heart sing. And so.. I don’t mind that the plans have changed.. in fact I am quite happy that they have.
I have thought a lot about him while on this trip and what it means that I have grown so attached to him. I have decided I am a good mom.. just a mom who doesn’t have any children of her own. I can be a positive, loving figure not only to Dresden but to other children too, like Samon, the young man who captured my heart in Cambodia and who deserves all that I can possibly give.. albeit from a distance.. for now.. but who knows what the future will hold.
All of this is to say that my plans have changed again. I am now nearly 4 months into my trip and I have decided I should start heading home now. I have made a few travel decisions and a promise to take Dresden to Italy.. because of those decisions I have decided to cut Laos and Vietnam from my trip and head home.
I am not disappointed. I have traveled my own country fairly extensively, traveled through 5 different countries and seen some really amazing places in the last year and I still have more to go…
I have also discovered that I have a sweet spot for being away from home of around 3 to 4 months. I start to get home sick around the 4 month mark and want to see all my friends and family. Now I have to figure out how to incorporate that knowledge into my life.
I have some idea of what I will do when Dresden and I are done with our trip but not completely. What I know for sure is that I know a hell of a lot more about myself and what is important to me than I did a year ago. For this I am eternally grateful to myself and the universe for giving me this time.
So… that’s it. I will be heading to Australia for a little bit and then back home.. home around end of May.
